Demi Lovato’s Honest Transformation Picture: ‘It’s Not A Perfect Journey’
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Singer Demi Lovato has admitted that she was still taking drugs whilst promoting her sobriety back in 2012.
The confession about her drug addiction came during Levato's new YouTube docuseries which aired last night.
Recalling that period in her life, Lovato revealed that she was still abusing substances despite doing TV appearances with a sober coach promoting her new way of life.
Two years prior, Lovato had been in rehab for alcohol and drug dependence, an eating disorder and self-harm.
During her this time, she had become a poster girl for recovery, but admitted that the therapy wasn't enough to keep her from relapsing in 2012, as she once again found herself dependant on substance abuse.
She said: 'I wasn't working my programme, I wasn't ready to get sober. I was sneaking [cocaine] on planes, I was sneaking it in bathrooms, sneaking it throughout the night … I went on a bender of like, two months where I was using daily.
'There was one night when I used a bunch of coke and I popped a few Xanax bars, and I began to choke a little bit. My heart started racing, and I thought to myself, “Oh my God, I might be overdosing right now,”'
In the docuseries, her manager Phil McIntyre discusses how he was forced to give the singer an ultimatum.
He recalled: 'We were in New York and she clearly was on something, and she was on air promoting this new way of life, and I was like, “You’re so full of it.”'
Lovato admits the threat of her crew walking out on her was enough to motivate her to stop.
Levato has spoken candidly before about her struggle with the eating disorder bulimia nervosa and is a vocal advocate of mental health awareness as a sufferer of bipolar and anxiety herself.
In her docuseries, she thanks her 50.3 million Twitter and 61.5 million Instagram followers for their support, saying she wants to prove that recovery is possible and be the best role model that she can be for them.
A 'then' and 'now' comparison picture posted on her Instagram story last night, further highlights how far she has come.
'It’s embarrassing to look back on the person that I was,' Demi said, adding, 'But I think that's what makes me a role model for people is that I'm not perfect. It's that I'm honest about where I am, but I think for so long I've been such a strong advocate for the things I believe in, and certain things I still struggle with.
'I think explaining that on-camera was difficult for me, but it's needed. People need to hear that it's not a perfect journey and every day is easy; some days are challenging.'